On Friday the 24th March we lost a very special family member Jessie, our beautiful golden retriever of 11 nearly 12 years. In our eyes, Jessie was more than just a dog, and she made our lives so much richer by being a part of it. We will never forget her.
She has been here with us throughout the majority of my (Emily) and my sisters Lucy and Isobel’s childhood and teenage years, and has helped us all through some very hard times. It’s taken a while for our family to process everything that happened as it was initially such a shock, as she was perfectly well one day then not the next. Her health went downhill quite quickly as she struggled to breathe properly and was unable to eat, which was so sad to watch. Especially as there was nothing we could do to help her except be there with her to comfort her. In the evening, my dad went to pick her up from the vets who were keeping an eye on her and doing some tests. She was almost ready to come home, but unfortunately she was very weak and collapsed, taking her last breath in my dad’s arms.
Because of all the trauma on the Friday evening and the aftermath during the weekend, we both didn’t eat very well in the days following and turned to unhealthy comfort foods that we knew were bad for us and that our bodies didn’t like us eating. The next week we learned a lesson the hard way in how important it is to listen to and be in tune with your body, and it has made us more determined to let it not ever happen again. For us it confirmed just how much the foods you eat can affect how you feel- mentally and physically, and how by eating too much or too little of something can make you feel very ill! From this and many other occasions, we’ve come to see that in times of grief, sadness, and distress, our first reaction shouldn’t be to turn to the things that are bad for us to make us feel better and fill that gap. Instead we should be looking to the things that will bring us joy and help heal our hurt. As we have learned, despite how much and how long we may try to ignore the warning signs that our bodies try to give us to show us that we’re doing something wrong, there will always come a point where we have to stop and evaluate the things we are doing and set out on the road to change.
Ever since March, grief has been a big part of our family’s lives.. but time does heal everything. Whilst Jessie was still here, all she ever wanted was us to be happy, and so the one thing that has kept us all going is the fact that we know Jessie wouldn’t want us to continue on being sad. We have had this post saved in our drafts since April, but with a new puppy due to join our family in the next week, we felt it was only right to finally finish and post it.
Thank you so much for reading. All our love, Em & Lou X